I had originally wanted to post one photo – but that’s impossible as the title conveys. Ending a long term friendship – in short, it sucks.
I have a lot of big ass feelings still – because there was no closure really. 7 plus years and it just ended because I wasn’t doing what she wanted. I wrote the below text when I was in a certain frame of mind. It comes and goes. Because today? I’m still pissed that she’s such an unforgiving and controlling bitch.
It just depends on the day I guess.
What is the best picture to portray a heartbreak a picture to describe how it feels to lose your very best friend not because that best friend died or anything as large as that but instead over something that could easily have been talked through if both people were actually open to forgiveness.
Unfortunately when one of the people refuses to let go of that hurt no matter how much you apologize or try to make it better it’s never going to be the same and at that point you have to decide whether you just give up trying and just go away or if you try to make another big stand and have a big conversation it never really gets resolved anyways. And you know that because you already tried several times to have that open and honest communication and you were in fact told that she didn’t know whether she’d ever be able to forgive you.
So at that point you can continue to wear sackcloth and ashes or you can just quietly go away.
The crappy part about it is that there’s no closure not really and you’re stupid hopeful heart always wishes that it could’ve been different or they could’ve been better or or something and you don’t talk about it much when you never reference it in public to mutual friends because that would be weird right although honestly those mutual friends picked sides even when they said that they never would do that.
But you feel it you think about it sometimes maybe there’s a memory of stupid Facebook memories pop up and you’re like oh yeah that was something and or you run into her an old acquaintance who knew both of you and I actually don’t know that you’re not speaking anymore they’re always asking hey how are they doing and you say yeah they’re doing pretty good and you just keep going so it comes out when you’re feeling a little blue or it comes out in your stupid dream or wishful dream where things are actually resolved and wake up and they’re not resolved and it’s still the same and it hurts again for a little while until you push it to the back burner and live your daily life.
And then those days just blending together and all of a sudden it’s months later months later and then I guess it’s just a memory Or a lesson either way…
What single photograph can show all of that?
